Chaos And The Involuntary Eskimo

Hi GELLYBABY :) // Friday, October 29, 2010

" Geral : GIRL I WANNA MAKE YOU SWEAT BLABLA
Me : Geral, Please be normal. just for a whle.
Geral : ok. . .... how? "

Hi. again. I'm in Geral's house, It's 12 in the morning and she's been bugging me to update since few hours ago so here goes.

It was a bloody long day. Well, It wasn't long la, just a lazy day.
As you know, Finals are going on right now. I have chemistry on tuesday, I already know I'm gonna fail because I only know chapter 1 of chemistry and chapters are coming out. Joy. Physics somewhere around there also, I'm definitely not getting an A for that either since I've been skipping the subjective parts of my homework every week this whole year cause I was just too lazy to write and go through the misery of getting it wrong. Biology is also somewhere around there... but.. sigh. I'm just gonna use natural talent for that. hahahha. in my dreams.

Modern maths exam today. I just have no comments on it. It just happened, I couldn't care less about my exams right now. I don't know why.
I'm in Geral's house right now, Just watched this Phillipino movie about some lady leaving her kids to go work in Hong Kong and that scars her eldest daughter and everything's so fucked up. I totally felt it man!
I mean, I'm the eldest, And I've always felt so abandoned cause my parents were just always slaving away at work and that's made me quite fucked up. But I'm not as fucked up as that chick in the movie la! I'm ok a bit :p

So I just remembered, I was in the middle of a survey thing... Which I started in July and just never bothered about ever again. And since the list is too long, I'm skipping to day 6 :p

Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.

I know it's kind of stupid to think this, But I'd never want to go through the death of a family member.. or a close friend. or even a friend.
Everyone speaks about wanting to live a long and healthy life, But honestly, I wanna die in my late 20s or maybe early 30s? I know I don't have the strength to deal with a loss of someone so dear to me, So I'd rather be the first to go. It's crazy but I dont know, I've always had this thought. And besides, I've kinda realised the older you are, The less appreciated you get.

But I'm talking shit, I might just get married at the age of 27, have kids and want to live forever. So yeah. I'm full of shit.

I'll see you soon. // Thursday, October 28, 2010

" I'm looking at you from another point of view, I don't know how the hell I fell in love with you."

Hello world. Or maybe just Geraldine. Since she's the only one who still bothers coming here. I think the last time I blogged was in.. July? I have matured drastically these past few months. Geral says I'm different. I think I am. I don't know how but I feel different. And It's a good change. I don't blog as often not because I have nothing to blog on but because it's kinda awkward. I'm typing this shit down, in hopes that someone will read it. It's like an imaginary friend. Kinda creepy if you think about it... But whatever. Awkwardddd....

Anyways,

Finals are going on right now. I'm not in panicked, I'm bored. This feels like a bloody drag. We're sitting for 10 subjects, 20 papers. its ridiculous. I'm so fucking tired! I slept the whole day today and just.. wasted away. Well fuck finals.

So relationships.

I've been... re-evaluating everything about my life. My family, Friends. I've come to realise that my family is actually.. Quite fucked up. Extremely selfish and just in over their heads. How I wish I could just walk out into a different world sometimes. But their lies and hypocrisy runs deep in my veins.

Friends, Well, they're the best things in my life right now. I used to feel invisible but now I just.. don't give a shit, I'm going with the flow. I'm not that hard to push over now I guess. If you don't give a shit, Neither do I. end of story. Life is good.

Boys. Pffft. They'll forever remain a mystery. Well they're not that hard to figure out. If they want something, then they want it bad. But most of them don't know what they want... But still want it bad. Makes sense? Hell no.

Like I said, I don't give a shit anymore. I'm not gonna wait by the phone for your pathetic excuse of a text message.

So it's the month of October,

I'm so bloody broke. Shannon's and Josh's on the 4th, Brother's bday on the 6th, Cousin's bday on the 10th, Aunt's bday on the 15th, Jasmeet's on the 18th, Haris's bday on the 20th, Mom's on the 21st, Roshinni's on the 22nd, Giuli's on the 28th, Ram's on the 29th AND IT GOES ON AND ON AND ON. ok, I didn't buy ANY OF THEM presents YET. just wait, I'll use my first pay check on them :)

That brings me to the topic about my NEW JOB. Not exactly my FIRST job since I was sort of a tutor last year. I got paid 30 bucks an hour for helping 5 year old geniuses with english. It was fun. Some kids were creepy, but kids are always creepy.

Anyways, I'm working in GSC, Mid Valley. I start on the 15th. To be honest, I'm quite embarrased to work there. EVERYONE GOES THERE. and I'm gonna be in this white shirt, behind a counter, with a constant fake but welcoming smile on my face saying "hello sir, what movie? how many tickets? thank you come again" WTFFFFF. I'd rather work in watsons where they pay more. but then I have to wear this purple nurse looking shit which is more wtf. and I guess a cinema will be fun to work in laa.. catch people making out on camera, Not that I find pleasure in it but yea :D doesn't happen everyday!

So yeah. I'm done here. Till next time.

Cassandra

( Picture Above May Seem More Yellow Than The Actual Object )

Long, Long ago, on the 7th day of the 7th month,
I came into this wretched and unfortunate world.
I was given the name Cassandra,
The name Cassandra came from an old greek myth about an unfortunate woman who the world thought was a liar,
A woman who wanted to be vindicated but never did and then later got raped by some dude.
Despite the torture and pain and anxiety this name had to carry through generations from generations,
My mom randomly picked it out from a fashion magazine.
I'm a 15 year old who apparently looks like a 12 year old.
I am easily annoyed.
But it's simple really, If you give me hell, I'll burn your house down.
Yes, I have guts. Except for theme parks, That stuff just freaks me out :S
My best friend's half portugese, And my other best friend has hair on her neck :p
This may excite some people but My grandpa has a pet fish....... That died a week ago unfortunately
My brothers laugh like a retarded playboy bunny.
My friends dont believe that I pee cause
I have the awesome-est kidney in the world that can hold up pee for about a shit loada hours.
Ok, enough about my kidney!
I played a small part in 'Cloverfield' when I infected my cousin with ebola.
I absolutely love music. But then again, Everyone does. Except Shannon :O
I'm half iban, My mom says I'm half indian too but I dont believe her!
In case you're wondering, No, I DONT live on trees. =/
I have a slight distaste for indians. :D just the ones that cant speak english
I'm not a racist bastard! >=[
ok fine, Maybe a little
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