Today was so. UNEXPECTED. ( In a bad way )


Woke up at exactly 8:57 this morning. Brushed my teeth, Watched tv until 9 then told my dad to send me home cause I've got music class. He sent me back at 10:25, perfect, five more minutes till my class starts and I havent even taken a bath. Sheeesh.

Then Took a bath, Had to walk all the way there cause my grandpa wasnt home. Ish.
went there at about.... 10:45. Class ends at 11:00. PERFECT. spent only 15 minutes there, then had to walk back again. Kinda wasted.

THEN, I chat with SHANNONE online and I told her I wanted to go MV so badly to get this chun radioactive shirt so she said "ok! come with Giuli and I"
So I was like. "OK! Meet you guys there"

Then Giuli calls me 10 seconds later ( yeah I counted :P ) begging me to come her house first. So I just had toooooo :p


Then we went to MV, to get my shirt, Giuli's bag and Danish's present.


What to get danish ah?
A barbie doll!
YEAAAAAAAAA!
YEAAAAAAAAA!
Lets do that! :D
YEAH!
whoa. serious ah? lol
yeah!

Shannon, Me, Giuli


So first we got him this hood from FOS but we put it in a tropicana life bag to make it look ori :p

Then we tried looking for a doll, there was this 14 dollar one which looked Chinese. ahaha!

But we didnt get it :( sadly.. they all disagreed in getting him it cause they were scared of his dad. hahah
But i still wanted to :(
Oh well..


Giuli got a PINK tropicana life bag. SHE COPY MEEH! :p
But her's looks chunter laa.. I helped her pick it :p nyeheheh
ANYWAY.

Came back from Mv, Went to Giuli's house to change, And I got this random message from Geral saying

" You love me, I know"

Lol. Perasan :p
And another one two minutes later, saying

"If you love me, CALL MEH!"

So I called her, And she was acting all gay. hahaha. Stoned :p


Went to Danish's party and everyone was like.. getting pushed in and shit but unfortunately, I didnt get pushed cause I was like.. having.. you know what. So inappropriate. Grr.

Meet a new friend today! SARAH

She's so hyper. And Edward Cullen-crazy. Lol.

In case you didnt know, EC's actually from this vampire story called twilight.

:D


We watched a horror movie after that at 11 something. HILARIOUS. Sarah wouldnt stop screaming. LOL. And I would pretend to scream at random moments when everything's intense just to scare them. Tried it twice and they squealed like never before :p (even shannon and danish. wow)

My eye wouldnt stop itching the WHOLE way thru. After the movie my eye was like. RED.
Got a random call from my dad after that. It was 12.

He scolded me for not telling him I was gonna stay over at Giuli's house. And We had an argument. I was damn damn pissed with him. And his UNBELIEVABLE selfishness. He picked me up, At 12:30 and sent me home to Bangsar. And when I got out, I was like "You drove all the way, went thru all the trouble, Just to send me back HERE. Wow. Selfish Much?" then I got out, Thinking he wasnt gonna get out and just drive off. He is a coward.

Then he gets out, and pulls me and then throws me towards the car and ALMOST slaps me. I refused to look at him so He held my face and kept on screaming at me "LOOK AT ME! I AM YOUR FATHER. DONT TRY YOUR NONSENSE" and I just gave him the deadly stare. Then he let me go and I walked off. He's not my father, He was never there.

Came home with tear filled eyes from all the stress and humiliation and just walked to the bathroom and slammed the door. And just sat at one corner or the bathroom and Thought.

Now, I've got rashes, Swallen eyes, and I'm emotionally dead.





And then I sent him one. last. Message

"Thats the last you'll see me. Damage Is Done"

My shoulders are feeling rather tight, My legs wont stop aching, My guitar string burst, I lost my drumsticks, I didnt do my homework yet and My mind's in another world. :


Had to do KH wood work for 4 periods today. My whole body is aching!

Well it turned out unexpectedly. Too lazy to snap a pic, sorry :D

Also helped lydia with her's.
Every time she does a mistake or accidentally hits her finger while hammering, She whispers "fuck!" to herself :p
so damn funny. She constantly says it. hahahah




Well thats it lah. My bday in two weeks, 7th of July. Cant believe Geral always thought my bday was on the 17th. :(
Well guess we're even, I always thought her's was on the 9th. heheh


I think I wanna get new clothes. And that chunted Van's checkered slip ons! :D





Ok, I'm ending this post here. My shoulders are killing me :( needa massage. hehehe

If you didnt notice, I'm using a diff font. Trebuchet. :D

SO its almost 12 and I needed tomorrow's jadual. So I decided to call Geral hoping she's still very much awake... Well...

Hello?
hmm
jadual?
somewhere... there
wad? u sleeping ah?
hmmmm
oh rite. sorry

Long pause

*She Hangs up*

Me, Geral

THEN! I called Nat! My only hope :p

Hello?
Hellllllo?
Erm.. jadual?
Er.. Bm, Pusat Sumber, Maths, Bm
Huh? Bm again? hahah
Yeah..
Nat, you're stoned.
aaaaaah..
Are you sleeping?
Half way
Oh rite.
Wait, I check for you

Long Pause

Ah. I got it all wrong
..

Me, Nat

I wont be suprised if someday someone stops talking to me cause of my blurrness :(


Anyway, I was going thru some youtube vids, and I found this dude. Cobus! Drum God!

Yeah, Noticed it was Hannah's bday this morning in science class.
20th June.

For some reason I still remember her bday! well mayb cause theres only two bdays in June for me, my bro's and Hannah's so yeah..

Called her few minutes ago, in the middle of nowhere with Jasmeet.

me : Hey, can I speak to hannah?
her sis : Whos this?
me : Friend.
Her sis: HAAAAAAAAAANNNAAAH!!


me : Jasmmet! I'm scared I dunno what to say!
Jasmeet: hahahha!

hannah : Helllllo?
me : err.. hey
hannah: whos this?
me : its errrr..
jasmeet : CASSIE!
hannah: OMG.
me : hey hannah!
hannah : OMG.
me : hehe.. yeah, its me :p
hannah:OMG. CASSSIE
me : ahaha.. yeah! so.. er.. i think its your bday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
hannah : OMG. THANK YOU!! OMG. WAD A SUPRISE!!
me : hahahha.. i miss you too! :p
hannah : OMG.
me : its been a year! you sound changed!
hannah : hahah! you too!
me : of course not! :p
hannah : hahaha.. you do ok :p
me : shaddap i dun :p
hannah : hahah
me: heh.. hey sorry but i've gtg now, ttyl.. BYE!
hannah : ok bye!
her sis screaming from behind : BYEEEEEEE!

Well our convo was something like that!
I was VERY surprised and flattered by her response! It was as if She just won a million bucks or something.. haha.. Well its good to know someone still appreciates me :p
After that i walked home from the middle of nowhere.. :p

Tomorrow, gonna watch a movie! well, i've confirmed with Shannon but i havent asked my mom. She HAS to say yes! :p

Labels: happy bday hannah

This feeling is tearing me apart day by day. I cant explain it. Its indescribable. I've come to notice that people who have this feeling are the people who dont understand it at all. Cause this feeling doesnt require that. Faith is all thats needed. The little things matter the most. Most people spend a lifetime searching, but never finds it tho its right in front of their eyes. This feeling doesnt have logic. Its a range of human emotions and experiences related to the senses of affection.

This feeling makes it harder to breathe. Literally. If Your constantly thinking about a person regardless on the situation, Your in this feeling. Its a good question but theres no right answer. One day you feel like your dancing on the clouds, so vindicated, over the rainbow.. Just an awesome feeling you wish for it to last forever.. But suddenly your falling into a deep, dark pit. Reality. But all good things must come to an end.




This feeling is inevitable.

'I can hear Cassie telling me now, "Shannon, you need a stress ball." ' - Shannnon

I know distance doesn't matter
but you feel so far away...
And I cant lie
but everytime I leave my heart turns grey...

And I wanna come back home to see your face...
Cause I just can't take it

Another day without you with me
is like a blade that cuts right thru me
But I can wait, I can wait forever
When ya call my heart stops beating,
when your gone it wont stop bleeding
But I can wait, I can wait forever

I'm feeling so down :(






Gosh.. I need a hug

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1. WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME?
Cassandra Mary Ranee Denis Jeyarkumar.

2. ARE YOU CURRENTLY SINGLE OR IN A RELATIONSHIP?
I'm single but unavailable ;)

3. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS?
A dog. Just a dog.

4. WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE ICE CREAM BRAND(S)?
The only ice-cream I eat is apple sours :p

5. WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE ICE CREAM FLAVOUR(S)?
Mmmmm.. I repeat, I ONLY EAT APPLE SOURS.. hhahahha.. but i like chocolate too :p

6. WHO IS/ARE YOUR BEST FRIEND/FRIENDS?
Geraldine... Roshinni... Nat... SHAAAAAAAANNNNNNON! hahahahaha..

7. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOURSELF?
I'm ON TOP OF THE RAAAAAAAAAAIIIIIINBOW!

8. DO YOU HATE VEGETABLES?
I don't hate FOOD.

9. CAN YOU COOK?
Er.... Do egss count? :p

10. CAN YOU PLAY INSTRUMENTS?
Guitar... Bass... and drums... I wanna learn the piano :(

11. CUPCAKES OR COOKIES?
COOOOOOOOOOOOKIES! :D

12. ART OR MUSIC?
The art of music and the music of art.. ahahha.. that doesnt make sense :p

13. VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE?
CHOOOOOOOOCOLATEEEH!

14. DOGS OR CATS?
Dogs! theres this theory...

If you give a dog food and shelter, it'll think You're God... But if you give em to cats, they'll think They're God!

15. SKYPE OR MSN?
Never used Skype before. So I guess MSN.

16. ITALIAN FOOD OR JAPANESE FOOD?
Spaghetti is great and all but not as nice as sushi :D

17. MORNING OR NIGHT?
Morning.

18. BLACK OR RED?
PINK! :D its the new black

19. GUY BEST FRIENDS OR GIRL BEST FRIENDS?
mmmm.. depends...

20. MOM OR DAD?
Mom's advice... Dad's cash.. :p just jokin.. I need em both...

21. WISHES
- Die faster
- Him
- Get a piercing
- Visit hawaii!

22 IMPORTANT THINGS
- Friends are just as important as family

23 IMPROVEMENTS
- music
- attitude


- 5 PEOPLE/THINGS(LOL) YOU TRUST
I dont trust anyone... Or anything... ahha..

5 TAGGEES.
- Alina!
- errrr...
- who else has blogspot? haha
- TCN :)
- CBOX! hhahahah

Hey again…

Well it’s been a while since I’ve wrote… My internet has been a lil bitch lately…

My life has been going great… The thought of the tribulation still haunts me but I’m slowly finding peace…


Mmmmmm… As you know... Summer Splash was today… Not really what I expected but it was okay I guess… It sucked a lil cause there was a HUGE crowd… Had to wait in line for almost two hours… Under the sun… whoa!

And about half an hour for food… FOOD! Gosh…I’m so hungry now…

Hung out with JJ and Farl the whole day… Mmm… Met Gerald on the way… She had the coolest flip flops! Hahahah… She forced me to wear it the whole time cause she wanted to swim… Well yeah… its nice looking and all but it HURTS! JJ and Farl wanted to go swimming after that… Well not really swimming, just… sitting in the pool…: p

I had to follow too cause I lost Gerald :P

She would be pissed with me if I wore her flip flops in the pool so I had to hide it in some nearby bush… Hahahah! ( JJ’s smart idea :p )

After that I had to leave cause I had church and all… So I left her slippers somewhere near the Food place… Hope she found it :S

I saw 7 hot guys… SEVEN!! Jj promised to intro them to me but he never did =( stupid boy! :p


Well that’s about it… I might not be posting much after this cause my internet refuses to work… Sigh… In fact its not working now! I mean… I’m actually writing this in my word document cause my internet doesn’t wanna work and I’m really bored. So… yeah… heh… you know what, NVM! Byebye.

Hey...

Yeah, well.. Its been 3 days since I've come online.

Cause I went for a camp.

Yeah. A camp.

Christian camp actually..
SM Damansara Utama Christian Fellowship camp. I know, I'm not in DU and stuff but I got invited to go so.. I did la. ehehe

The Camp was pretty lame at first cause most of em had a very annoying typical chinese acceent.. Well I thought they did.. Until I actually met them. As.. became friends. duh. lol


Here's how it aaaaaaaaalll went. =D

Day 1.
I didnt know anyone there except my church friend, Hannah and my cousin, Keith.
We had to meet at damansara at 10 in the morning. I woke up at 8 cause I didnt pack my bag yet :p

Yeah, then I went to MCD and bought Fillet O' Fish for lunch cause they told us to pack lunch and eat it in the bus.

I met Keith & Hannah at her house. OMG! her dog sooooooo hates me :S
the minute I came inside, the dog just JUMP on me! and tried to attack me. lol. Good thing she pulled it away in time or I would have lost a leg :p

Then her mom drove us to the meeting place. There, I met SUNSHINE! wooo.. lol.. (Hannah's cousin.) She's damn friendly. And I met her friend, Nikita too. Yea, their both nice.

THEN!

The bus arrived.
On the way there, Joel (camp leader) and the others tried to come up with some jokes to entertain us.. It was lame. REALLY REALLY lame. But it was so lame, It's funny. lol

I oni remember one tho...

What did the big phone say to the small phone?
Errrrrr...
YOUR TO YOUNG TO BE ENGAGED!! aaahahahahaha (starts poking his stomach, i dunno why)

Joel, The rest of us.



And they came up with A LOT of lame jokes and stuff.. then we started singing songs.. ahahha.. then FINALLY we reached!






The place was really, really.. sophisticated! very unexpected actually.. I was expecting it to be in like.. a remote area? But thank god it wasnt.. Anyway!

We checked- in.. and we got divided into groups.. Also known as our 'family' cause of that I was craving for chocolate all the way cause the group names were chipsmore, kit kat, smarties, oreo and koko krunch. I was in chipsmore. At first, I was kinda scared cause I didnt know anyone at all from my group. But they turned out to be really friendly people..

We played some games and stuff.. Yeah.. It was great..

The dorm was freakin creeeeepy!

Especially when we found Hannah's door wide open at night.. When she locked it just before she left.. And she had the key. Weird eh? well we still dun know how it happened.

And we had "CSI" its like.. treasure hunt stuff.. but we had to search for FLUFFYKINS! (kar hoe's plushie that got lost thanks to Aaron :p )

I knew it was behind the pulpit! but no one wanted to believe me so, in the end Oreo won. pfft!

Day 2.

Overslept and was late for morning exercise cause I'm the only one who took a shower. =.=
We had to dance HEEEEEEEEEY MARCARENA! lol..
It was crazy!

Then they had leader's assembly. Basically just playing this game.. And then they more group games..

then.. BUTTBALLL!!!!

WOOOO!
Its just like captain ball but your butt MUST always be on the floor.

its fun. Well my team lost tho =(

But who cares. ahaha


And then it was time for U'NITE. Suppose to be like... a prom? but not everyone was formal... so yeah.. heh..

Later at night?
Couldnt sleep... The dorm was empty... Then suddenly... I HEARD A SQUEAL! "EEEEEEEEI!" and I was like... what the hell?!
Then when I got out, I find my neighbour's screaming at their door cause... there was a bug in their room.. pffft!


Day 3.

Nothing much today.. I was early.. Yay.. ahhhaha...

Packed up and left.. BUT WAIT.. while waiting for our bus, I met.... some guys from the other camp.. my tsunami :p , john , samuel and KEEEEEEEEEELVIN! hahaha..

John poyo.. samuel.. is.. quiet.. according to my cousin.. and tsunami is craaazy.. lol.. keeeeeellvin? uh.. ahahah..

Bus came after that... We took our last photo.. Then... We left...
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Thats bout the whole thing... Theres more but I'm too lazy to type it.. hahaha.. Well... They also had this game called "Angels & Mortals" that lasted thruout the whole camp.. Its like.. everyone gets a mortal that they have to take care of and stuff.. like.. secret admirer laa.. I got Kin Hoe.. I felt bad not giving him anything and stuff... so I bought em coke a couple of times and sent him a letter saying "hi" when I felt bored.. ahha..

All my 'angel' got me was a cup of tea.. pfft.. well.. better than nothing..

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Yeah... It was an awesome experience... And yes, I did feel the presence of God there... Food wasn't that great but at least it wasn't spoilt.. heh.. Yeah.. I kind felt homesick during the camp... A lot on my mind.. Sigh.. especially bout the previous post... =(

Today?

Today.. wow.. still gives me the chills..

There was a special meeting in church today.

Pastor preached about..................................... The scariest thing I have ever heard.









THE TRIBULATION!

oh my gosh.. It was so scary.. He said he has a vision that many Christians were gonna be killed. And many will commit suicide cause of bankruptcy and famine.

And something really scary is gonna happen in the year 2012. (Omg.. I'll only be 18 :S )

He also said He had a vision that God showed him a clock. And the time was 11.
And when he asked God what did it mean, God said It means we're at our last days.

There was more. It was really scary. I just burst out in tears =/


Well, I guess it wasnt that bad cause right after that i went to megamall with some friends. Took my mind of it a little. But now.... I just cant stop thinking about it :(




























Whats gonna happen next?
:(