Melancholy // Wednesday, April 15, 2009
"... There's no need for reminding, You're still all that matters to me... "
Today was... Pleasant. My thoughts often wondered off. For some reason, I was in my own world. This was good, I didn't have to put up with the usual shit. Still, There was something behind my mind. Something I couldn't stop thinking of. I couldn't tell anyone how I felt cause frankly, I don't know what my point is. Why'm I thinking about it... NOW?
I guess its just a pinch of jealousy, I feel rather revengeful. I wanna be vindicated. I don't want to be the loser! Why am I the one who's still aching?!
It's not what you think.
JJ and The Creepy Singaporean // Monday, April 13, 2009
So I was talking to JJ a while ago, And he tells me this girl from Singapore started messaging him on myspace and that she was really hot. So I asked him for her pic and to my surprise!
They look exactly alike :p I almost thought it was photoshopped!
They look exactly alike :p I almost thought it was photoshopped!
The Pros and Cons of Breathing. //
".... It was a cold night. The sidewalks were empty as I watched the glass fog up in front of me. I turned elsewhere to avoid my mind from wondering off again. So I looked up to the sky and I saw the city lights out shine the stars. The beautiful stars that we've grown to neglect. The sky would be meaningless without it. The blessings we've often took for granted. What would life be without it? The people who would die for us and the people we would die for are drowned by the thoughts of the people we would die to be. Never realizing we all live under the same, dreadful sun. The faded raindrops as it slides to the edge or a lime green leaf. The piercing light of a candle that chased away the darkness. The beauty of music and it's ability to pull our heart strings. The sound of laughter and families reconciling. The sight of a pinkish purple sunset as it fades into a slight blue. Life is beautiful. But we'd only learn how to live when we die. How selfish we think we're not. But indeed we are. I wonder... Will there ever be a happy ending to this never ending fictional story?
... And then reality hit me. "
... And then reality hit me. "
Torn In Between or On The Fence? // Sunday, April 5, 2009
"...You Can Kiss Me Goodbye..."
Sometimes I wonder why I don't know who I am. I always feel this insecurity burning in me. My life is half fictional. I was never good at expressing my emotions right. Nothing's ever the same. Sometimes I'm happy, And then sometimes I'm not. Sometimes I hold my head up high to stop my tears from falling. Sometimes I think I'm just overreacting.
Some people say I'm selfish and arrogant and self centered, Some people say the total opposite. Who am I?
I've just noticed that when I'm around the people I love, I'm a better person. But when I'm constantly around the people I've grown to hate, I become a monster, Someone I'm not. Sometimes I feel my whole life is a lie. I'm confused and misunderstood. But then again, How can anyone understand me if I don't even understand myself?
The people who raised me up are the reason I become horrendous. But the people who's known me half my life makes me a martyr. What makes me hate them so much that I'd turn myself into someone, Or something, I'm not? Its not them I hate, Its the things they do. How self centered they are. Hypocrites. Megalomaniacs. But what if, The people you love are the ones who wont hesitate to push you away when the people you hate are the only one's who'd be by your side till the end?
Who am I?
Some people say I'm selfish and arrogant and self centered, Some people say the total opposite. Who am I?
I've just noticed that when I'm around the people I love, I'm a better person. But when I'm constantly around the people I've grown to hate, I become a monster, Someone I'm not. Sometimes I feel my whole life is a lie. I'm confused and misunderstood. But then again, How can anyone understand me if I don't even understand myself?
The people who raised me up are the reason I become horrendous. But the people who's known me half my life makes me a martyr. What makes me hate them so much that I'd turn myself into someone, Or something, I'm not? Its not them I hate, Its the things they do. How self centered they are. Hypocrites. Megalomaniacs. But what if, The people you love are the ones who wont hesitate to push you away when the people you hate are the only one's who'd be by your side till the end?
Who am I?
What's the picture for!? //
1. Take a recent picture of yourself or take a picture right now.
2. Don't change your clothes, just take a picture.
3. Post the picture with NO editing.
4. Post the picture with these instructions.
1. What's your ambition?
- I wanna be famous, But I dont wanna be famous, I wanna be remembered.
2. What do you like the most about the person who tagged you?
- She's chinese ^^ hehehe
3. Are you looking for a boyfriend/girlfriend?
- I gave up on Love.
4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
- Mmm... No... It depends.
5.How many babies you want?
Destroy homework?
- YES.
6. What would you name your kids in the future?
- Well, I suck at naming Girls, So perhaps If I have a daughter, I'll name her after Geral? haha. And If its a guy... I'd name him, Jesse Allistair or Blabla Adonis. hahah
7. What is your goal for this year (2009)?
- Get Famous!
8. Do you think you are clever?
- I think I am But no one believes me! :(
9. What are you favorite colours?
- White, Grey, Black. =/ Hot Pink! Lime green, Purple, Bright Orange, Teal, Greenish Blue, Blabla Yellow!
10. Do you ever wonder where you would end up after you die?
- Yeah, I think bout that all the time. I might end up wondering the world as a soul, I might reincarnate, I might go to hell? who'd know?
11. What are you bad habits?
- Delaying work
12. If you can do anything now. What would it be?
- Take the next plane to Vegas, Party all night, Sneak home the next morning and go to school :p
13. State a random fact about yourself?
- I have a mole on my neck. =/
14. What does flying mean to you?
- Being Naive.
15. What do you crave for the most currently?
- A hug. :(
16. What do you mean if you were to fall in love?
- Love doesnt Exist. The world is screwed.
17. Are you currently single?
- Are You Currently Feeling Gay?
18. How many ex boyfriend/girlfriend you had before?
- hahahahaha
19. Do you believe in fate?
- Mmm.. No.
20. What's your biggest fear?
- Loosing the people I love.
Instructions :
-Remove one question from above and add in your personal question.
-Make a total of 20 questions and tag 5 people.
-Notify them in their chatbox that they've been tagged.
-List them out at the end of the post.
People I tag :
Geldo
Yo mama
2. Don't change your clothes, just take a picture.
3. Post the picture with NO editing.
4. Post the picture with these instructions.
1. What's your ambition?
- I wanna be famous, But I dont wanna be famous, I wanna be remembered.
2. What do you like the most about the person who tagged you?
- She's chinese ^^ hehehe
3. Are you looking for a boyfriend/girlfriend?
- I gave up on Love.
4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
- Mmm... No... It depends.
5.
Destroy homework?
- YES.
6. What would you name your kids in the future?
- Well, I suck at naming Girls, So perhaps If I have a daughter, I'll name her after Geral? haha. And If its a guy... I'd name him, Jesse Allistair or Blabla Adonis. hahah
7. What is your goal for this year (2009)?
- Get Famous!
8. Do you think you are clever?
- I think I am But no one believes me! :(
9. What are you favorite colours?
- White, Grey, Black. =/ Hot Pink! Lime green, Purple, Bright Orange, Teal, Greenish Blue, Blabla Yellow!
10. Do you ever wonder where you would end up after you die?
- Yeah, I think bout that all the time. I might end up wondering the world as a soul, I might reincarnate, I might go to hell? who'd know?
11. What are you bad habits?
- Delaying work
12. If you can do anything now. What would it be?
- Take the next plane to Vegas, Party all night, Sneak home the next morning and go to school :p
13. State a random fact about yourself?
- I have a mole on my neck. =/
14. What does flying mean to you?
- Being Naive.
15. What do you crave for the most currently?
- A hug. :(
16. What do you mean if you were to fall in love?
- Love doesnt Exist. The world is screwed.
17. Are you currently single?
- Are You Currently Feeling Gay?
18. How many ex boyfriend/girlfriend you had before?
- hahahahaha
19. Do you believe in fate?
- Mmm.. No.
20. What's your biggest fear?
- Loosing the people I love.
Instructions :
-Remove one question from above and add in your personal question.
-Make a total of 20 questions and tag 5 people.
-Notify them in their chatbox that they've been tagged.
-List them out at the end of the post.
People I tag :
Geldo
Yo mama
