Chaos And The Involuntary Eskimo

Dying In Your Arms // Friday, May 8, 2009

"... I Cut You Out, Now Set Me Free... "

Have you ever had mixed feelings? Have you ever lied to yourself that everything's okay? Have you ever reconsidered the meaning of happiness? Have you ever thought that the grass is much greener on the other side, All you gotta do is walk over? Have you thought you were over something when really you just tried to keep it at the back of your mind? I guess it's been what I've been doing my whole life. Somehow all these things I hate constantly walks back in my head. I thought the misery ended so long ago. When really, all this while I was lying to myself and the world. No doubt, I am happy. Not just the happiest I can possibly be. And I know what it's like to be happy. That happiness could never be replaced, It could never be forgotten. But what if the only thing that makes you happy is the only thing that gives you misery? I used to condemn happiness. But now I see, It's my fault. I let myself be vulnerable, I let my happiness hurt me, I let my happiness mess up my head, I let my happiness spoil my day, I let my happiness get away with false pretense, Because I love my happiness. I loved My Happiness. But I got sick of the misery, There was no way to win the loosing battle, I knew even if I tried, My actions wouldn't pay off. Cause I was just a joke to everyone else. I was nothing special. I had to run away. I had to lie to myself. I had to let go of my only hope. The only thing that kept me going. I had to pretend I was okay.

Shut Up, Cassie. You're Getting Poetic Again! :o

Cassandra

( Picture Above May Seem More Yellow Than The Actual Object )

Long, Long ago, on the 7th day of the 7th month,
I came into this wretched and unfortunate world.
I was given the name Cassandra,
The name Cassandra came from an old greek myth about an unfortunate woman who the world thought was a liar,
A woman who wanted to be vindicated but never did and then later got raped by some dude.
Despite the torture and pain and anxiety this name had to carry through generations from generations,
My mom randomly picked it out from a fashion magazine.
I'm a 15 year old who apparently looks like a 12 year old.
I am easily annoyed.
But it's simple really, If you give me hell, I'll burn your house down.
Yes, I have guts. Except for theme parks, That stuff just freaks me out :S
My best friend's half portugese, And my other best friend has hair on her neck :p
This may excite some people but My grandpa has a pet fish....... That died a week ago unfortunately
My brothers laugh like a retarded playboy bunny.
My friends dont believe that I pee cause
I have the awesome-est kidney in the world that can hold up pee for about a shit loada hours.
Ok, enough about my kidney!
I played a small part in 'Cloverfield' when I infected my cousin with ebola.
I absolutely love music. But then again, Everyone does. Except Shannon :O
I'm half iban, My mom says I'm half indian too but I dont believe her!
In case you're wondering, No, I DONT live on trees. =/
I have a slight distaste for indians. :D just the ones that cant speak english
I'm not a racist bastard! >=[
ok fine, Maybe a little
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