I cant believe I'm saying this but it's finally hit me. Stupidity.


I hear my juniors hooking up with each other almost everyday. For some of them, Its just like back in primary school when everyone used to have little crushes on each other thinking it would be forever and then they get together for name's sake not knowing there's more to a relationship then just spending 5 minutes alone behind the school hall. And when one looses feelings for the other, they find a new one. And the cycle just goes on and on and on. But I always thought puppy love was true love. Because 'adult love' was all about sex. 90% of married couples get divorced because of lack of sex. Some men cheat on their wives because of lust. Families are torn apart because of lust. Its not everyday you see an old married couple hold hands while taking an evening walk together. On the other hand, Puppy love was when both of them would promise the world to each other knowing they had not much to give, when she would lie about the boy she was with after school just so she would be with him for a few more weeks, when he would spend his last savings on a birthday gift for her. It's when all the small things mattered most. But what about teenage love?
Well to me, Everyone only gets one first love. And whether it was puppy love or not, That person would always be a part of you. But then again, Love is bullshit. It's complex confusion taking over you emotionally. It's a shame how many people fall for it's traps and then question themselves to the grave why it didn't work out. I fell in what I thought was love. But the love I wanted wasn't meant to be. I guess I do have a long way to go. I'm only 15. I shouldn't even be wasting my time on love. I should be going around vandalizing public toilets and going against my parent's rules and burning my homework and rock out with my band. I realized that, I'm never gonna be 15 again. Why should I waste my time over a heartache when I could live life hardcore? I'm not saying I'm not gonna date at all or have my first kiss when I turn 27. I'm just saying I'm too young to get too serious. Tho, I'm a sucker for love.